Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Kristen Stone on a queer girl poetics, porn, publicity


This is beautiful and inspiring, as I sit in bed attempting to smooth out my thoughts on the blog form and the public-girl-writer-self for the finale of Heroines. Puppy Jean Genet comes tonight. I am nervous yet excited. There are strange beautiful pastel flowers growing on the Christmas cactus plant I've had for a year now, which makes me feel full of possibility. Today I have decided not to try to open a boutique, but to attempt to study German and French and apply for Ph.Ds in comp lit programs in a couple of years. Of course I have had two years of being shut out from Ph.D. programs entirely, but maybe now I'm ready, maybe I can make myself into a good enough candidate. And those were English programs, anyway. I will write my dissertation on the Vienna Group and Bernhard, Handke, and Jelinek, as that's a book I'd like to write anyway. It is a strange warm-up here in December, 70 degrees yesterday and today. Humid. Christmas cactus. I've been kind of in heat.


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  1. every time you link to my blog i nearly vomit with joy. in other news, a band called 'nervous but excited' is playing at my friend's house tonight.
    #grossgirl #synchronicity

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  2. that link was totally beautiful and inspiring! thank you!

    i'm so happy to hear that you are thinking of studying german and french. i took my german final last night and, though i'm happy to have a bit of a break between courses, i drove home thinking "was there ever a life before this? before learning this language?" romantic, yes, but so totally true. it opens up an entirely new world. a world that i absolutely adore and am so compelled by. i too am in a place of wonder and confusion lately- what am i doing and where do i go from here? a few days ago i decided that spending the next few years learning languages is a pretty good place to be and sooooo worthwhile. i've felt calm ever since. write, read, make sweaters, make art, and learn languages. that's pretty fucking fabulous life. i am broke as shit but fuck it.

    i love that you're naming your puppy jean genet. :) and i love that you are sitting in bed, working on a book, dreaming of your PhD. i am drinking coffee and gearing up to put on some lipstick and go to the De Young Museum. it is cold here but i have so many banners to wear. maybe i'll wear my Esther Greenwood banner today in honor of all us writer girls.

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  3. kristen - you're wonderful! i always feel joyous when there's synchronicity in our two spaces.

    vomiting with joy, by the way, reminds me of the essay 'sex in public' by lauren berlant and michael warner - have you read?

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  4. angela - i love you. why don't we live in the city and like have tea all the time and go see art together?

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