This morning hit with a feeling of something, I've decided - who am I to say what's writing or not? And if I speak and write and echo others on blogs as this emerging form, then it would be wrong to abandon it. I cannot abandon it, I feel. So I'm not going to stop blogging. I don't think I can. But I might still close down FFIMS, and maybe like Bhanu, revolutionize the blog, come up with a different blog. I don't know. Will have to meditate. I don't think I could write daily of sex acts, maybe a couple times of week...I'm joking. You'll have to go read Bhanu's blog to get what I mean. But something. Maybe a different frame.
I already posted this on Facebook, but yesterday, so deep within Heroines revisions, trying to make Part One stick less, feel less stiff at times, I am sitting outside at the community market, drinking a cup of decaf, which I've started to do, liking the taste of coffee but not being able to be that caffeinated, and as I write the word VAMPIRE in caps on a page of the manuscript I mutter the word out loud in a sort of creepy voice, and I only realize this after I do it. The good people of Carrboro, who I have started to adore, well used to eccentrities, look up briefly at the strange writer woman and then continue their conversation.
Maybe my blog will be about vampires.
I've also decided to get a dog, probably, finally, a rescued puppy John and I will have to drive almost five hours to a suburb of DC to get, a Shih Tzu Boston Terrier mix. That I will put in sweaters. I have the urge to put small warm bodies in sweaters - is that maternal? My blog will definitely not be about that.
I am thankful for all of you.
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Hi Darling! Happy American Holiday full of anxiousness over the real American Holiday which is Black Friday. I am always superbly happy to see a blog post from you which 100% selfish of me I love your writing so. Please email me your new address when you have time. I won't send an American Holiday card but I might write you a letter.
ReplyDeletelove,
Rebecca
Hi darling back! Hope you are warm and at home and cooking something adventurous and delicious. Will do.
ReplyDeleteI keep on meaning to write you letters. I feel like the end of Bob Dylan's Desolation Row. But I am writing you kindred, kinetic, psychic letters. No. I need good paper. I have tons of postcards started to you tucked away in my house I haven't mailed.
Hope you had a good thanksgiving - we don't have an equivalent holiday here - unless the culturally loaded Waitangi day.
ReplyDeleteYes, to you, vampires and blogging! xo
thanks andrea! John and I just made an early dinner together - a portobello mushroom with cashew/lentil/brown rice stuffing, recipe we found on the new york times, kale, sweet potato fries, mashed potatoes, vegan apple pie later. But it's really warm here - which is strange for me.
ReplyDeletethanksgiving is beyond culturally loaded here - massacre of american indians, imperialism of pilgrims, killing turkeys for the meal, like a ritualistic sacrifice, etc. but it's more than anything a feast day with american (fall) foods- probably a lot like boxing day?
Ooh, sounds so tasty! I love mushrooms.
ReplyDeleteYeah, that probably is a bit like boxing day in a way - people eat the leftovers. Some of the mix up of traditions here is really weird considering it's the height of summer.
It's definitely a good break though.